I used all my posts so had to wait for hours.haha. Like I said in my first post I left in 2002. Once my ex left me that was the final straw. Meeting with the Elders who I was very close with and seeing there reaction to the fact that my very spiritual wife had an affair and nothing happened also opened my eyes. Especially with all the times I was counseled about the stupidest things you could imagine. In 2005 the Elders came by to see if they could bring me back. After screaming at them when I opened the door I slammed it then The Force took over. I calmed down and opened the door dying to find out what they wanted to say. Again 2 Elders who at one time I would die for... came in to talk. It took 3 years to contact me. After 30 minutes of BS they saw I had turned to the Dark Side. They asked if they could pray with me. I said I have nothing to say to that SOB. One offered me the mags and I said no thanks. He turned and said "but Darth they are from Jehovah". I said take them and stick them up your @%$. The look in his eyes was a Kodak moment. I used they society to learn a foreign language I knew a sister who knew I could not be Turned she gave me the Watch and Awake in Portuguese. After all they were free and she was placing Mags with No return visits (which was nice). Since the Mags are in easy to understand lingo, learning Portuguese was easier than I thought the only regret was having to read articles. After a year I didn't need the Mags anymore. After a few years went by I googled Jehovah Witnesses and it brought me here. I kid you not the first link was this site. Like many I thought it was their site. When I saw it wasn't even after the hatred I felt I was nervous because BEWARE OF THE INTERNET AND APOSTATE SITES. 3-4 years I still felt the effects. I will be honest, I felt like this site was people who couldn't let go. They seem to complain and discuss things that they should just forget and get over it.. I kept coming back and reading things that shocked and moved me. The experiences all over the world were things I saw with my very own eyes, and always thought maybe it was me, I questioned things when maybe I shouldn't have, but here it is, no it wasn't me. I wasn't brainwashed 100% but damn close. I think in 2000 the first time I heard about the Generation changing I went TIME OUT what???? As I said before this site helped me heal more than I thought anyone could have. 8 years since I left and still I feel the programming in my Brain. My new wife is a religious girl she loves her church, but is normal ya know what I mean? I went to her church (dragging my feet) and when I entered I felt Evil. I felt if there is a God he is going to send a bolt of lightning and destroy me now. I've only gone 3-4 times and she understands, I've been to church my whole life I'm Godded out. It took 8 years to finally join this site to maybe help others see the deception we have been under all these years. The only thing I will thank the evil BORG for is the education of the Bible. After 30+ years of reading and studying the same things over and over, anytime a discussion of the bible comes up it is nice to know you can still amaze people with your bible knowledge. I use allot of Star War lingo because the movies cracked me up when it was easy to compare the story to the "Truth". Jedi=Elders/pioneers Sith=Us, Jedi Temple=Bethel,becarful of your thoughts, that can lead to the Dark Side. Again thank you all for the post all these years, you have helped me heal scars I never thought could be healed.
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Newbie: Roll Call ---- Oldies Returning: Roll Call
by cameo-d ini have noticed a lot of newbies lately.
(i also noticed that after being absent for a year happy1975 is making a return visit.).
so, if you are a brand spanking newbie, post here and tell us a little about your interests, your state, your new direction in life, your favorite things, whatever you want to say---this is your thread.. .
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The Beard Starts TODAY
by Mad Sweeney init was only this past weekend that i finally stated (both aloud and in print) that i would never attend another meeting again.
like many brothers before me, i have decided to symbolize this new dedication to freedom for myself and my family with a beard..
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This post is so funny because that was the first thing I did after I quit..... I have to grow a beard, and since 2002 like Samson, no razor has touched my head. I always felt I would never be able to get people to forget I was a JW before....... now I get "you were a JW really?? I can't believe that.. How long were you one? NO WAY!!!!!!!!! Freedom is soooooooooooo sweet.
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Was the Circuit Oversear treated like "a god" in your Congregation!!!
by Witness 007 inmany ass kissers would put their name down so they could have him over for dinner......"okay now, they can't eat milk products,red meat, white meat, flour, sugar, salt, water...." .
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There was only 1 CO I met that actually seemed liked he was sent from Jehovah. He was there to serve your needs. He was from Texas and his wife was great too. The only CO who wasn't full of crap. You could tell he hated those brother and sisters who would try to kiss up to him because he was sent from the "society". The meals he insisted on nothing special," spaghetti will be just fine". He only stayed around for 2 years only to be replaced by a regular CO who was like the rest. GOD ON EARTH.
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The longest prayer you had ever endured.
by african GB Member infrom personal experience i know it usually happens at the end of a district convention.
it would be either the do, co or an experienced elder.. they usually go through everything that was said throughout the dc and thank jehovah for this and that...... last year i used my stop watch to record the time taken by our do,.
by the time he said amen!
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The brother with the 3 X5 cards???? I thought that was a big NO NO? Prayers are supposed to be heartfelt. One "brother" from my hall who was a child molester and all knew it but that was a long time ago he has changed. Funny he was always out in service with a van load of kids enticing them with his bag of candy... but anyhow.. he would give the ending prayer for some meetings and we had this game. How many times will he say Jehovah in his prayer? 35 times in 1 prayer......ps I never said Amen to any of his prayers.
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What year Did you Stop Attending Meetings - How Long were you a JW ?
by flipper ini'm trying to compare some statistics and figures on this to share later in the thread to see if more long-time witnesses are exiting- or are newer witnesses exiting after a shorter period of time.
and - are more people exiting in the last 10 to 15 years than before.
so your answers would be helpful in looking into this .
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Started going to meetings in 1977/78 found freedom in 2002
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Finish This Sentence....You Know you're a JW teenager If....
by doodle-v induring class the teacher asks "who all plan to go to college?
" and you shrink down in your seat in an effort to become invisible as everyone in the class raises their hand.
-doodle-v. your turn!
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you are told to BURN all your Led Zeppelin albums.
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My 1st post
by Darth plaugeis ini left the "truth" in 2002 after being in it for more than 30 years.
i am so glad i wasn't raised in the "truth".
my very zealous wife who was raised in the "truth" found a worldly boyfriend and swore nothing ever happened.
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It's fun telling my "worldly wife" of the things we would do in the truth. It's funny how we were told leaving the truth will be a death sentence for us nothing but saddness out there. I have never been happier now, than anytime I was in the Truth.
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My 1st post
by Darth plaugeis ini left the "truth" in 2002 after being in it for more than 30 years.
i am so glad i wasn't raised in the "truth".
my very zealous wife who was raised in the "truth" found a worldly boyfriend and swore nothing ever happened.
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They are adults now, when it began they were 11 and 13. I have a stepson now and he's 6 . And I have no doubts now, that I wasn't a bad father. You think of these things when your own children disown you. Did I do something horrible, but that's the way it is.
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"Jehovah has really blessed me."
by stillin ini was at dinner with witness friends last night when one of the guys started that up.
i kept my mouth shut, let him have his say for a while; it's good to feel gratitude and i'm glad for him that he feels so blessed, but never, even in my most "spiritually healthy" days have i boasted like that.
finally, i spoke up with "how do you think that makes me, almost unemployed and struggling these days, feel?
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Your a better man than me I would of done that old drinking gag you always see. Taking a drink and then spitting it across the table.......... And I would laugh...how I would laugh
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My 1st post
by Darth plaugeis ini left the "truth" in 2002 after being in it for more than 30 years.
i am so glad i wasn't raised in the "truth".
my very zealous wife who was raised in the "truth" found a worldly boyfriend and swore nothing ever happened.
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I left the "Truth" in 2002 after being in it for more than 30 years. I am so glad I wasn't raised in the "truth". My very zealous wife who was raised in the "truth" found a worldly boyfriend and swore nothing ever happened. hahahaha yet she confessed to the Elders of meeting him but nothing ever happened. Since her Dad was the Head Elder and he ran the hall if you know what I mean,, guess what nothing happened to her no reproof nothing. Months later SHE files for divorce. The elders stop to see me and ask my plans for the future since this will be an unscriptual divorce. I told them honestly I had no plans to remain by myself for the rest of eternity. Well that's all they needed to hear. I stopped going to meetings just stopped and all my Brothers and Sisters I have known forever, never called or stopped by to see what had happened. Theses were my dearest friends I had no worldly friends so Bang I was alone. I was crushed I had done nothing wrong and brothers who I had helped in times of despair vanished. My kids believe I am Satan himself. They won't talk or see me. I tried for years and got only heartbreak. I would send presents and they would be returned. I stayed single for 5 years, never dating I TRUSTED NO ONE! I found this forum a few years ago and was surprised at the experiences I read. The damage done by the "truth" no one except us could ever understand. The Hatred I feel for witnesses is indescribable. My screenname explains it. I have become a Dark lord of the Sith. Like Star Wars 3, I would go to the Jedi Temple and take them down. I bought most of it people, those silly beliefs we had. I wasn't afraid to voice my opinion when I didn't by a new "understanding". I wasn't the model witness I will admit, but it was deep in my heart. I loved it. I pionered for several years even thou going door to door was something I HATED!!!! This forum as I was saying was like seeing a shrink and has helped alot. Only now do I feel comfortable sharing with others. A few years ago I met a wonderful girl who was patient and understanding of the slow progress I was making of becoming a real person. Holidays are back in my life and it was a struggle even thou I know there is nothing wrong with them. I could not bring myself to say I was in a cult ......but I WAS! It is a cult. Thank you to all on this forum for sharing your heart wrenching experiences.
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